Undigestable....9

LOVE AT FIRST MEET....???? :) :)

Undigestable....8

LOVE AT FIRST TALK....???? :) :)

???

is there exist an eraser to erase something from our life??

FUEL of my LIFE....11

Give me some sunshine..

Give me some rain..

Give me another chance..

I wanna grow up once again..

FUEL of my LIFE....10

When we cant change our past...

When we dont know our future...

Then, why cant we just enjoy our present....???

Someone again left me.. :(

I came back at 5 after enjoying day with my friends..And as I always do I came to say "HELLO" to the two fishes my sis got on her birthday, 16th of this month only..And since that day I just keep watching them all the time..They are like my closest pals..Someone who got closed to me so quickly..We were even not able to name them because we wanted to give them some special name..The name which means something to us..The name which actually means what they are to us..So we were still thinking what to call them..

And when my Sis came from her class at 6 to say "HI" to them..She shouted..And when I look at her..I found one of the dead..I just could not believe that..How can she die so early..When we are taking proper care of her..My hands were trembling..Somehow I regained my strength and took that dead fish out of the pot..I was just not able to see her..It was impossible for me to throw it somewhere..When we die, we go through all the rituals..But what when any of animals die??Are their lives costless??Does their lives have no importance in any one's life..When we hit any1 with our car and that person dies..We are made to go through court case, even when it was by mistake..But which court will file case against us when accidentally fish died because of us only..??

She was also someones daughter??

or someones mother??

or someones friend??

or someones gf??

or someones caretaker??

She must be having some dreams..Some beautiful dreams..More than beautiful we can even think of..Or Dream of..But all these things really mean to us??Why only human life is important to us??Fishes also breathe..They also have heart..And they are so beautiful that we just cant able to remove eyes from them..

We had even not named them..We were thinking of some special names..Names which actually mean what they mean to us..So we were just thinking...For my sis's friends they were PRACHI & RITIKA for them..For my sis they were PRACHI & JAYATI for her...And for me they were just my girlfriends..With whom I use to chat when I felt lonely..And they reply back too..But now there is only one left to talk to me..And don't know even she will also talk to me or not..Maybe she will feel I'm responsible for the other's fish death...

After coming out of this trauma..I thought of changing the water..Haven't done it before but had to..Because I felt the other fish died because of that only...So I started emptying the pot..And transferred the fish in other vessel..I cleaned the pot..And when I was emptying the dirty water from the vessel..I thought of putting the fish back into pot with little dirty water..But as I was transferring her back into pot she jumped out on the floor..i shouted so loudly..And my tears came out...And when I saw her trembling i vomited..I was just not able to digest what happened...My mom started scolding me to stop crying like small kid..And pick her and put her back..And I was just not able to see her..Then my mom call me that she is still breathing...And asked me to put her back into pot..But my hands were trembling..It was not possible for me to do that..I don't know how doctors operate...They really have big heart...Strongest of all..Then mom put the fish back into pot..And mom said that she is still alive...I went to see her..And I was just smiling...I was not able to believe that she is still alive..I was asking mom that "she is still alive", with a smile..I took sigh of relief..She is really so strong that she was able to live outside water like that..Thanks GOD..I still have one of my sweethearts with me..I LOVE U..

And right now she is feeling bit lonely..But enjoying..Will bring new friend for her soon...:)

But today I realize that life means to me a lot even if its not human life..:)

FUEL of my LIFE....9

When we are young and fails..We feel, its the end of the world..But its not...Its just the beginning...

Life Can Be Same Again..

It was 6th June...Normal weekend..Normal Saturday...But now its no more normal..It has become the special day in my life...Day which I cant forgot..Day which I don't want to forgot..Day I will never forget...

Suddenly after that day I started living my life again...Enjoying my life as I use to...Life full of moments...Moments not worth forgetting...I have got my life back..The life which I use to love...And love myself in that life....And its gonna continue whatever may happen now...

Enjoy life...That's what I want to do now....:)

P.S. - Thanks..Its for u...:)

FUEL of my LIFE....8

Why to have expectations, when expectations act as secret poison??

FUEL of my LIFE....7

Why not smile over things which we have rather than crying over things which we dont have...??

its LEGAL now...

With the change in section 377 of Indian constitution all the GLHT (gays lesbian homo....) community are celebrating..But there are few more things on which they missed giving thoughts on...

Our mother tongue 'HINDI' consists of many words which actually supports them or are made for them or refer to them...Like :-

chaloGAY

khaoGAY

sunoGAY

boloGAY

dekhoGAY

manoGAY

doGAY

loGAy

banaoGAY...

And the list continues...So next time when u just use any of these words..So be bit careful...

As its ALL LEGAL NOW...

Undigestable....7

How can anyone buy RITZ??

Just to get someone noticed by others...

Nice expensive way to..:)

are you VIRGIN ??

It was saturday morning for me but afternoon for everyone else. I was sleeping leisurely with my pillow over my head keeping me away from all the noises this world makes..And suddenly my cell vibrated..I pick it up and the voice from other side was so sweet, that instead of putting it down again, I listened to it..It was like some 16yr old girl calling..And she said..

"Hi, good afternoon."

"Is this Tushar??"

I replied, "ya speaking."

She asked, "Is it right time to talk to u??"

I wanted to listen to her but wanna sleep also..Hate such calls while sleeping..But that sweet voice made me to hang up..

So, I replied, "Aapki marzi."

She said, "what??"

I again replied, "Aapki marzi."

She kept quiet and was smilling..

I asked, "whats there to smile??"

She said, "nothing."

I said with a bit forceful sound, "I guess u can tell me so that I can also smile."

She said, "I heard u said 'ARE YOU VIRGIN' instead of 'AAPKI MARZI'..."

I was smiling and she too..And chance pe dance marte hue I asked, "waise are you virgin??"

And she kept the phone saying, "bye, sleep tight."

Undigestable....6

Why people using words like fuck off and all think that using these words make them belong to high society and consider people using same words in hindi as illiterate..??

Back to square one..

Suddenly my life is taking u-turn against my wish and Im not at the driving seat..Getting the comfort of chauffeur..But whose the chauffeur now??
TCS??
Destiny??
God??
Or me myself??
Whosoever is the one..But Im not liking it..After 6 months of bench I finally got bit satisfied..But satisfaction came with very short expiry date..At least I got tagged to the project..I started learning something..It was not up to my expectations..But what has happened according to my expectations till now??But still better than nothing..
But now Im back to square one..Im again on bench..Project bench this time..

P.S. - Don't know what I want but I just don't want to start believing in destiny and luck..:)

Shaadi.com or Goodfood.com??

Its not my new area of interest..Not even im advertising for these sites..And its not the old crap idea of starting a start-up...But its about a person who falls in one of these categories or both..:)

Actually his name is Saurabh Gupta..He is unofficially my mentor in the new or only project I have  got...Don't know how can I describe him..But he is really shaadi.com or goodfood.com or both..And I have evidence in support..And if anyone doesn't agree then do let me know..

It started something like this..I entered my ODC (offshore delivery centre) and he called me up to join for breakfast..Strange but there are some good people who really take care of u..And I was not alone for breakfast..Almost everyone was there from my project...I asked him from where he brought..He said from Green-Hut..A restro near our office...(n I was wondering k raat ka bacha khana khila raha hai humko)..And everyone was praising him..I was just not able to get whats happenin..How can everyone be so fake or are they pulling his leg indirectly..No doubt the food was awesome..But why they praising him for the food he brought from the restro as if he is the cook in that restro...Later I asked him..Did u prepared that??He said yes..And I wondered..how can a person make some awesome, so yummy DAl-MAkhani..And its not so easy even our mummies not able to make such awesome food early in the morning..And he being the boy..And bringing the climax to the story..He told me that he got up at 5.30 to make this food for 40 odd people without any reason..

It didn't just happened once..It happened again..It rained heavily that morning to every one's surprise beating the rising temperature..And everyone was just talking about having Pakoras somehow..And what happens..Here Saurabh is again with Pakoras..Being the Allah ka Banda..How can he do all this I still wonder..Those were the best pakoras I have ever had..Stuffed with aloo and a layer of paneer..And who cares about health when u have such yummy pakoras around..Everyone just loved it..And he was just busy in inviting everyone..And when anyone praises he just blushes..:)

And I know it will keep happening..Hai na Saurabh??

And everyone asks him the recepie being male or female, elder or younger, senior or junior...

So isn't he perfect cook (goodfood.com) or perfect shaadi material (shaadi.com) or both???:)

Undigeatable....5

When someone loves u, u don't realize it,

when u realize it, its too late,

 u always love the one who leaves u 

and leaves the one who loves only u...

FUEL of my LIFE....6

Deep thinking makes a person more practical and careful about life agendas...:)

Undigestable...4

Its always girls who drives boys in the end...!!

What a luck...

10 April, 2009

We were coming back from office in Vikas's car..And We means we 3 friends  me, Neha and of course hamara driver Vikas..And Deepti was missed out as she left early without telling us..:( We were enjoying all the way..Me and Vikas was making Neha pareshan..Actually we keep doing that all the time..And she also enjoys it...But as we reached Tilak Nagar..The Wagon R moving in front applied brakes suddenly..And we just managed to stop somehow..And people around started shouting..We were just not able to get whats happening all around..There was nothing in front of that car..And That car didn't broke down even as it moved on..Then we guessed something must have come under his car..And now that is under our car..We were not able to decide what to do and whats happening..We were just looking at each other..We were scared..Vikas said,"I can't move further,cant harm something by my car"..Till that time we were guessing that some dog might have come under our car..We but then moved our car further..As we moved 100 metres further..We started hearing some sound..Sound of bird chirping or cat crying..And Neha shouted..She felt as if something is inside car..We parked our car on roadside..And then started looking under it..We saw small baby kitten sitting on back shocker..We became more afraid..We started praying k woh theek ho...Then we asked one rickshawwala to look under and take that cat out...We just wanted it to be safe..As that bhaiya hit the kitten with stick..She ran..And we were happy to see her perfectly fine..We all cheered..But what we saw next..She ran over dog sleeping side of the road..We all shouted but than realized that dog is itself not well..And she was able to escape without being caught..We finally took breath of relief..And were looking at each other..Kya kismat thi is cat k..Pehle hamari age wali car se bachi..Then hamari car se bachi..n hamari car k neeche kisi bollywood hero k tarah travel kiya..And then ran over her enemy dog...And after this everyone lived happily, we three, and that small kitten..:)

My Quarter End Results..

Its April..Month not just known for April Fool..But also known for companies quarter end results..As i don't own any company till now..Still I will be declaring results..Not my job results but results about my amendments which i took on 1st Jan 2009..

1. I have finally got project..Didn't got in first 15 days of this month as i wanted..But lately got one..And its Citi Auto financial..:)

2. Im still not able to study for CAT..Just not able to manage time..Don't know why is it happening..But im pretty worried about this..:(

3. I still havn't started saving part of my salary..But i don't regret it now as i was involved in buying few necessary n special things for my family..:)

4. Im still on my way to flirt..But not the way i use to..Actually not getting sufficient time..:(

5. Im calling one of my friends daily and that too religiously..And both my friends and me are happy..:)

6. Im now really a good boy as im not using abusive words in spite of watching roadies and splittsvilla regularly..:)

7. Im still not able to find one NGO to join..Anyone having any info regarding that..Please do update me..:(

8. Im still single...koi mil hi nahi rahi..:(

9. Havn't checked my weight..So dont know if its 69 or 62..:)

10.  I hope i wrote decent no of posts and hope it goes on..:)

So, checking my goals and my results i declare 60% bonus to myself..:)

FUEL of my LIFE....5

My two chocolate rules :-

1. Never share chocolate with anyone....:)

2. Never buy chocolate, just earn it........:)

P.S. - Both these rules are religiously followed by me..

FUEL of my LIFE....4

Money is NECESSARY and i guess most NECESSARY but not SUFFICIENT for LIVING LIFE in REAL..

My New GF...:)

Yes, i have got new Gf..New means new..And she is totally new..I had made lot of efforts to have her in my life..I guess that's understood..We cant have anything in our life without any efforts..But this time the efforts are different..Different from all previous..I didn't waited for her at the metro stations..Didn't waited outside her college..Didn't kept calling her day and night..Didn't met her in any of the fests..Didn't met her in any of the functions or get-together..Didn't met her on facebook or orkut even..And didn't even met her in my office..But i saw her on TV..On computer..In newspaper..And finally met her in one of the electronics showroom..And made her my GF by spending my complete 2 months salary on her..Not in impressing her..But actually in buying her...Ya, seriously..And all those people who believes money cant buy love..Wait...Think again..Its possible..Literally I bought my love..My GF..My new LCD TV..:)Yes, that's my new love..My new Gf...My LG SCARLET...:)

P.S. : And my new tv is my new gf because my X-Gf was my computer...I didn't ditched my X-Gf but just got crazy seeing new one..And now i have 2 GFs simultaneously...:)

Undigestable.....3

I dont understand why people write 'mah' instead of 'my' and 'mahself' instead of 'myself' when it takes less time to write 'my' and 'myself' and also makes sense..:)

Undigestable......2

Have u guys ever noticed when do girls especially speak in english??Its when they are angry or they are defending themselves..:)Ya its true..I have checked it with many girls..But i dont understand, why cant they speak in hindi that time???:)

FUEL of my LIFE....3

Selfish...Im selfish..But im selfish for my life..And my life includes my family,my parents, my friends and many more things..So i think about my life, not myself, before taking any decision..Because im selfish, not self-centered..:)

Sad....:(

The title is not to misguide or tell something else..Im really sad..And much more sad because i dont know the reason..Actually have lots of reasons..Just dont know whats making me sad..So that i can at least try to find its solution..But..

1. Why we feel sad when someone starts giving more importance to others??

2. Why we feel sad when someone starts having wrong perception about our nature??

3. Why we feel sad when someone doesnt try to understand our feelings??

4. Why we feel sad when someone doesnt have time for us??

5. Why we feel sad when someone is not ready to listen??

6. Why we feel sad when someone doesnt see our tears hidden under our smile??

7. Why we feel sad when someone lie to us??

8. Why we feel sad when someone doesnt want any relation??

9. Why we feel sad when someone doesnt want to share anything??

10. But why we feel sad when someone is not able to find single reason for our sadness, whereas we can find many??

FUEL of my LIFE....2

Its never luck behind any thing..Its always our hard-work (if we did) and the decisions we took in our life..Luck is just an excuse..

Undigestable......1

Why our moms always ask the vegetable-seller that "bhaiya sabzi taazi hai??" As if he will say"nai memsaab purani hai..meri tabiyat theek nahi thi..isliye aaj bech raha hun.."..:)

My s!mPlE ScHeDuLe..

6:30 - My mom wakes me up..Actually just tries..And informs me that its time to start dreaming..Don't be shocked..It works this way..U usually see  dreams when your mind is in conscious state and body unconscious state..

6:45 - I finally get up..After getting 2 earlier warnings from mom..Which i don't remember..But just believes her...And goes to loo to empty what all i have..Waste i mean to say..:)But there too in loo I'm in half sleep mode..Its just when i comes out i realize how well was i balancing there...

6:50 - Don't get shocked..I don't take much time to empty..:)Now its time for brushing teeth..This is the time when i start getting in my senses..And realizes that i will be late to office if i don't hurry up..

7:00 - Its time to shave..Have to shave daily..:(Office rules..Why don't they understand that shaving is like peeling the skin of our face..:(And which beard I'm keeping depends on time i can afford..

7:10 - I go for bath...Its 10 minutes in which i have to manage everything from shampoo to soap..Or from head to feet..

7:20 - I enter my bedroom after having bath..And seeing my room clock i realize, i don't have any time left..I hurriedly get ready..

7:25 - I do all the puja n all..Actually my puja just consist of Hanuman Chalisa..So not big deal..And in these 5 min only i have to gulp my milk and 1 parantha..The way snakes have rats..

 

7:30 - I leave home..Switch on my cells and take rickshaw for my bus-stop..

7:37 - I reach my bus-stop..Where I'm again the first person to reach...But i have to answer again to stupid questions like how do i manage to reach on time consistently..Actually I'm punctual..:)

7:45 - My bus comes..Ya bus..Its my office bus..TCS..Tata Consultancy Services..I take my seat..By mine i mean on which i sit daily..And keep watching through the window..But when any stop comes..I just check who is entering..And wish them 'good morning'..I hope u not taking me as bus conductor..

8:45 - We reach office in gurgaon..But our office time is 9:30..:(Its our bus driver who drops us so early..

8:48 - I enter canteen and now its my duty to check if the canteen is clean and breakfast is ready..Don't worry nothing happens like this..I reach office so early that i feel the canteen staff must be having this perception..

9:00 - My other friends starts coming..And we discuss what all happened in bus..Kisne kiski bajayi..:)

10:00 - We all go to mark our attendance abd proxies..Ya, this still continues..And come back again to canteen..

10:15 - I have my breakfast which i brought from home..Actually its lunch according to my mom..But my stomach...

10:30 - We all go to library to check our luck..If we have got any mail or not..And read newspaper after that...

12:00 - This is our time to move towards GYM...Yes, the gym opens at 12...So we have to wait for it to open..We play tt (table-tennis)..Actually i learnt it here only..TCS believes in all-rounders..So they have different techniques to make u fit for their company..

1:30 - I along with few of my friends make entry for the gym..Not to be muscular or to have 6-pack abs or 8-pack..But just to remain fit and masti..:)

4:30 - After feeling tired of exercising..We moves towards canteen again to have something..And what we have is fresh lime soda...Its really good for body and cheap also..:)

5:00 - We go towards "the maggi wala" which stands outside our office..He even pass smile to us..After all we are his regular customers..

5:45 - We move towards our buses in a hurry for 2 reasons..First, that we don't miss our bus..Second, we have to take our favourite seats..By favourite i guess u got..Full window seat..

6:15 - Its the time we reach GG1..TCS other office and starts playing DUMB-CHARADES..This game only takes place in our bus..And its flooded with all the private home productions..And any tough hindi word works..

7:30 - I reach my stop..Then take the rickshaw back to home..

7:45 - I change my clothes and shouts "mom bhook lagi hai jaldi khana do"..And before food comes to me..I'm at my computer table..My parents call my comp as my gf..:)

9:30 - After chatting with all my friends and reading all the mails..Or u can say after getting tired or bored i moves towards my room to read newspaper..

11:00 - I think of sleeping..That's the toughest work for me because I'm suffering from insomnia...:)

12:30 - I come back to my gf..My computer..Its natural..Man goes to his partner when he is not feeling sleepy...And starts writing my blog....Currently  My s!mPlE ScHeDuLe..:)

And guys don't be shocked TCS actually pays us to remain fit, learn table tennis and to make these days golden days of our life...")

My New Year Amendments

I always take few of the amendments every new year..But dont check if im following them or not..But this time im declaring them in open..Hope so i will follow..:)

1.  Most important of all..I dont want to be on bench anymore..I want work..I want project..I dont want salary without any hard-work..As i was getting from last 2 months..And this should happen within next 15 days..

2. I want to crack cat this year...Dont know how..But i have to..Will start studying for it soon..And will study according to cat rules, not with mine like last time..

3. I will start saving some part of salary from now..I dont know where i spent 80k of my salary..But this will not happen this year..

4. I will continue flirting..But healthy one as i always do..Will not care what everyone thinks..Because its my life..

5. Will give call to one of my friends daily from long list of my friends..So that they dont complain anymore that i only call them on their birthdays..

6. Will continue my amendment of last year 'not to use abusive words' this year also..

7. Will become part of one of the NGO's in the city..

8. Will not remain single anymore..Im not tired of being single..But i want to love someone...:)

9. Will reduce my weight from 69kgs to around 62kgs..

10. Will continue writing on this blog..So guys keep reading...:)

HAPPY NEW YEAR..)