I came back at 5 after enjoying day with my friends..And as I always do I came to say "HELLO" to the two fishes my sis got on her birthday, 16th of this month only..And since that day I just keep watching them all the time..They are like my closest pals..Someone who got closed to me so quickly..We were even not able to name them because we wanted to give them some special name..The name which means something to us..The name which actually means what they are to us..So we were still thinking what to call them..
And when my Sis came from her class at 6 to say "HI" to them..She shouted..And when I look at her..I found one of the dead..I just could not believe that..How can she die so early..When we are taking proper care of her..My hands were trembling..Somehow I regained my strength and took that dead fish out of the pot..I was just not able to see her..It was impossible for me to throw it somewhere..When we die, we go through all the rituals..But what when any of animals die??Are their lives costless??Does their lives have no importance in any one's life..When we hit any1 with our car and that person dies..We are made to go through court case, even when it was by mistake..But which court will file case against us when accidentally fish died because of us only..??
She was also someones daughter??
or someones mother??
or someones friend??
or someones gf??
or someones caretaker??
She must be having some dreams..Some beautiful dreams..More than beautiful we can even think of..Or Dream of..But all these things really mean to us??Why only human life is important to us??Fishes also breathe..They also have heart..And they are so beautiful that we just cant able to remove eyes from them..
We had even not named them..We were thinking of some special names..Names which actually mean what they mean to us..So we were just thinking...For my sis's friends they were PRACHI & RITIKA for them..For my sis they were PRACHI & JAYATI for her...And for me they were just my girlfriends..With whom I use to chat when I felt lonely..And they reply back too..But now there is only one left to talk to me..And don't know even she will also talk to me or not..Maybe she will feel I'm responsible for the other's fish death...
After coming out of this trauma..I thought of changing the water..Haven't done it before but had to..Because I felt the other fish died because of that only...So I started emptying the pot..And transferred the fish in other vessel..I cleaned the pot..And when I was emptying the dirty water from the vessel..I thought of putting the fish back into pot with little dirty water..But as I was transferring her back into pot she jumped out on the floor..i shouted so loudly..And my tears came out...And when I saw her trembling i vomited..I was just not able to digest what happened...My mom started scolding me to stop crying like small kid..And pick her and put her back..And I was just not able to see her..Then my mom call me that she is still breathing...And asked me to put her back into pot..But my hands were trembling..It was not possible for me to do that..I don't know how doctors operate...They really have big heart...Strongest of all..Then mom put the fish back into pot..And mom said that she is still alive...I went to see her..And I was just smiling...I was not able to believe that she is still alive..I was asking mom that "she is still alive", with a smile..I took sigh of relief..She is really so strong that she was able to live outside water like that..Thanks GOD..I still have one of my sweethearts with me..I LOVE U..
And right now she is feeling bit lonely..But enjoying..Will bring new friend for her soon...:)
But today I realize that life means to me a lot even if its not human life..:)
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