Thoughts & Moods

Direct Dil Se......1

2011-07-25T11:37:00.000+05:30

This is certainly not a love letter...
But I would like to take the opportunity on this special day...
to tell you, how beautiful you have made my ways...
and to appreciate you in a way...

Your attitude towards life matches me..

You are ambitious and wanna achieve heights..

You not only see dreams but also work for it....

and I certainly love you for it....

And also because, you have always made me felt so special...
Truly saying, I never ever felt so special before....
I know its because of your love for me...
But you know you pamper me little too much..

And lastly a wish for you...

For which I would even fight with God...

If he is thinking of not giving to you....

the wish is to PLEASE give you, everything you want in life...
And choice I can give him is to make you my wife....
But rest he cannot deny..
Because you are my cutie pie....

High 5...uchal k...\m/

2011-07-14T05:07:00.003+05:30

The title of the post seems to be very simple and complex. We all know what is 'High 5'. Its the easiest way to tell your friend that you second his thought in the most exciting manner. And 'Uchal k' is the extreme act of excitement to express your happiness or feelings. Above two sentences explains the simplicity of the title. The complexity arises when these two phrases are joined together. The complexity is nothing less than the complexity in the people which share this group. They are individually complex, however, becomes simple when are together. 'High 5...uchal k' is the name of the group of 5 friends. These friends share different aims and purpose in life, completely different colors. However, together they form the complete rainbow of 7 colors. The other 2 colors come from the bond and caring they have for each other. These people never think alike, however, does everything like together. These people are always sad when they are in their rooms, however they never stop smiling when together. These people stare girls/boys alone, however, everyone stares them when they are together. These people are complex alone,however, they are simple together.

High 5 have all the relations in the group. Someone is other's father. Someone is other's son. Someone is other's best friend. Someone is other's daughter. Someone is other's virtual GF. Someone is other's love. Someone is other's someone.

High 5 is the group, which exists in the campus of Great Lakes. Is this the place where people become great, or they make great friends, or they make great groups, or they make great relations, or they make great carrier. I don't know about the others but I have made great group in Great Lakes - High 5..uchal k....The group consists of 5 notorious people Richa, Siddharth, Siddhant, Tushar and Vikram. All these people have some USP in them. Something only they know about themselves. Ye sab bakwaas hai...kuch nahi hai in logo m...sab nakli hai...ekdum fraud..sirf dealing deni aati hai in sabko..bas ye sochte rehte hai k kiska kab n aksie kaate...n apne aap ko to smajhte hai jaise yehi sab kuch hai...duniya inhone hi apni mutthi m karni hai....Reliance agla Indai m yehi khada karenge...Subah utha jaata nahi hai inse...sab kuch kal pe taalte hai.... BUT THEY ALL WILL DO SOMETHING ONE DAY. Lets see what all these people are.

Richa : The first thing someone notice about her is her smile. Itni badi hai k face hi chota pad jata hai...And ladke to aise girte hai iski smile dekh k jaise 5 saal k govt. 5 min m gir jaye. But she is smallest kid because she is the most pampered person in High 5. Though she is the eldest also. She takes care of everyone. She makes sure that everyone else in the group is having food properly. She makes sure that everyone is reaching their class. She carries breakfast to the class for them. She even comes specially to the class just to make sure that we have something to eat. She is our 'GULABO'. Her 'PLEASSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEE' is so long, that no one is able to refuse her after that. And when no one listen to what she says, she 'CANCELS' that person. And ye sabse zyada naraz hoti hai...Actually its her way to get work done from us. Sirf nautanki hai iski, and hum mann jate hai to ise lagta hai k its working. Her favorite game is pass-pass. 'PASS'

Siddharth : He is the most sophisticated person of our group. Her best replacement is any minister of Indian govt. Every time he is serious, he starts behaving like minister with eyes wide open. He thinks people take him serious, and we make sure that he lives in this dilemma. He tries to study hard, but never get marks. He loves nasha. Daru ka nasha...pyar ka nasha...dosti ka nasha..nashe ka nasha..According to him we all should make nasha part of our life. He copies people walk perfectly. And when he dance, people stop dancing. No one can copy his dance and no one can beat him in his dance. His favorite song is 'sweety sweety sweety tera pyar chaida'. When he wears cap and glares, he is unstoppable. He wants to have nice body and bullet between his legs. And right now both these are unimaginable for him. He just makes bullet's noise and act as he he is driving it. And we get free bullet ride on his imaginable bullet. He is 'DADDA' for Richa, but for us he is 'FIA' - Frustrated Ishaan Awasthi.

Siddhant : He is best husband material. Idol person in our group. We all admire him for his sincerity. Sometime envy him also. He studies so fast, that we all the time keep on chasing him. He is the only reason we are able to study this much. He knows how to use his time perfectly. He has perfect shield around him. Neither he will ever come out of the shield, nor will allow you to break his shield. Everyone tries to bring him out of his conscious state. And when he comes out, more than him other 4 are happy. He wanna reach heights, and one day he will. We call him 'ROTLU' and his favorite line is 'aise nahi hota...pagal ho kya...' And if you want to strike to his heart, you just need to sing 'tune mere jaana...kabhi nahi jaan...ishq tera..dard mera - EMPTINESS'

Vikram - He is the toughest and easiest person to describe. He has the dirtiest of room in the hostel. He washes his clothes just once in the month. He can dance to any tune and with anyone. He is made for Pune but loves Delhi. He studies the most of all of us, however, he reads only newspapers and magazines. He is the living encyclopedia for us. He opens the book when everyone has closed it after completing the preparation for the exam. You can never see him visible to chat but he is 24*7 online. He is the fastest person who will like and comment on your post. I doubt if he is paid by Zuckerberg to do all this or is he in the IT support of Facebook. He never says no to anyone for anything. He writes his assignments in class. And if he tries to do the pre-read, he surely miss that class next morning. He is our 'FUNSUK'. And I guess I don't need to explain further what he is.

Tushar : His room number is G2G. You will always find the door open. He just wants his room number to be written in the history of Great lakes,. He is the most vella person of the group. Iske bare m kuch na hi batau to better hai. But he will one day say, " Mat jao, Golu ro padega"..:p

So lets have HIGH 5....ucha k.... \m/

Last Day......

2011-06-21T02:32:00.005+05:30

Last day...Last day..Ya last day is the day which makes us realize our life...By life I mean all the moments of our life..We just keep on living our life; but the moment any last day comes..We realize what life is..What all moments we have lived in those past days..Why cant we have such last days each second to have moments each second or to realize life each second..

Our few Last Days:

# Before being born - kicking in all directions inside mom's pouch and crying
# Before going to school for first time - crying and hiding behind mom
# Before 'pee'ing in your shorts - act as the world's most innocent child who doesn't know from where the water is about to come
# Before learning to write on notebook - writing all over the walls and smiling when someones scolds
# Before learning to ride cycle - ask dad or grandpa to hold and make you ride the world
# Before using pens to write - buying all kinds of pens as if I'm gonna do all the writing henceforth
# Before exam day - who made the exams and why exams come so early
# Before passing the school - you started loving all your teachers whom you hated the most
# Before the exam results - praying to god, "m 101 ka prasad chadaunga"
# Before college's first day - what to wear..how to impress girls/ attract boys..how to be dude/babes
# Before the assignment submittion night - next time I will do myself..just someone share it with me this time
# Before writing first love letter - imagining yourself as SRK
# Before going on first date - watching all hindi movies and learning all the romantic dialogues
# Before talking to girl for the first time - just rattafying what all you gonna talk
# Before holding girl's hand for first time - checking 100 times if your hand is clean
# Before going to kiss girl for first time - thinking all night will she like it or not
# Before loosing your virginity - reading all the instructions again and again as if its the toughest exam to clear
# Before the first placement interview - all night imaging yourself in front of interviewer and telling yourself continuously that you not gonna be frighten
# Before last day of college - all high and singing all the dosti-yaari songs and confessing to each other
# Before going away from your best friend - asking him/her to call you daily and keep giving all updates
# Before getting the first salary - making budgets which sums to double of our salary
# Before drinking for the first time - "just gonna try it once"
# Before going away from the home for first time - all happy to enjoy the freedom and sad to lose the freedom
# Before the first project delivery date - praying all night and repeatedly trying to remember if you checked all precautions
# Before seeing the girl for marriage - hoping her to be like your dream girl
# Before the marriage day - planning honeymoon and ******
# Before your first night - " "
# Before becoming father/mother - holding your spouse's hand and eyes glittering to see your kids in your hands
# Before your kid actually starts walking - holding his hand and trying every hard to make him walk
# Before your kid's first day at school - buying him the best school bag and water-bottle
# Before you being hospitalized - resisting and asking yourself, "who will take care of my kids after me"
# Before buying first car for your child - imaging the worth of smile on his face seeing the gift
# Before losing your closed ones - remembering all the beautiful moments and praying to give your life to him/her
# Before being on dead bed - confessing for all your wrong deeds and praying to forgive you for them
# Before your break-up - **blog post like this**

Com'n...why cant I be single??

2011-06-09T02:21:00.002+05:30

liar...
are u really single??
com'n u cant be single...
how come u single???
don't hide..u don't have any chance on me...
don't try to flirt out here...

These are few of the lines (or punches) I have been hearing in the last few days or months or years...Shit years...!!..People somehow don't believe that I'm single or don't want to believe....as if every girl is running behind me... or am i dude... or am i teetotaler..or am I the only boy left single...Somehow I'm enjoying this singlehood..(dil pe pathar rakh k bolna padta hai..).. But I can reason out the few of the advantages of being single...So here it goes:

1) You cant post videos of 'Pyar Ka Punchnama' on your facebook wall without having fight your gf..
2) You can add as many friends on your list as you want (girls of course...if you gonna add boys then you will always remain single)
3) You can wear t-shirts like this and claim your prize...

4) You are not required to give your daily updates to anyone...starting from how you go to loo.. to how you gonna sleep...
5) You can comment anything on your your friends pics..(girls by default)
6) You are allowed to booze and smoke as much as you want without hiding from anyone...
7) You can flirt with any girl you want...
8) You can have so many friends who are girls and can go for movie with them...just you two...
9) You can wear any color you want...or without color will also work..
10) You are not required to think of ways to prove to your gf that you really love her..
11) You can say "love u" to any girl...because for gf it is "i love u"
12) You can go to disc with anyone..I guess I don't need to explain it further
13) You can talk to anyone on phone..no one will question you to whom were you talking
14) You can say "you were busy" but not to gf..for her it is "you were busy just to escape from her"
15) You can become rich by saving your phone bills

You can do anything and everything you want..But you cant do what your heart want..because you cant hear to your heart when its with you..You hear your heart only when it is with someone else..You can smile anytime..But you can't smile everytime thinking about her..

I'm not single by choice..but by luck...:)

So many; Still alone

2011-04-17T02:40:00.003+05:30

How many times it has happened in our life that more the number of people around, more we feel lonely..or in other words...How many times we felt we feel lonely in most populated crowd.??

How many times we have so many friends around to make...And all approachable..rather they approach u themselves..but still u run away from them..Why???Are u scared??If scared..Then scared of what???Yourself??Them??Or making new friends??Or loosing all friends??None of the question fits into the situation.And also none of the answer fits into the situation...Or situation itself doesn't allow you to fit in??I guess, this never happens...We are ourselves not able to fit into it..

After all this question and answer thing.. Still the statement exists exactly same..

How can we define loneliness??Or how can we measure loneliness??Answers to both these questions will never give us solution to run away from loneliness...However, just try to enjoy that very moment, when u are all alone may help u out....as it has just helped me...:)

PERFECT IMPERFEKTION

2011-04-13T09:15:00.002+05:30

Starting the day with best of moods..Best of combinations to start-a-new!
Plans to conquer world while bathing your stress out!Combing your hair neatly and are so proud!
Eating confidence in breakfast and gulping down courage instead of tea..
Taking the car-keys amidst your dreams.
You hit the road,reality hits you..with everyone alongside struggling just as you do!
You at the best of your confidence,wanting everybody to notice the newly found you.In the middle of the road you fight with the shrieking horns,irritated masses and mentally prepare yourself for the battle up further against..
The confidence is such that you plan to take the world one-on-one.
However,with every passing minute your confidence is neglected,you feel outrageous with no human watching.
Was the boosting not enough for the survival you wonder!
Wonder why appreciation is replaced by detention..
Honesty by slyness and friends next to foes..your individuality at stake for fulfilling other's goals.
HELPLESS and DEJECTED YOU walk back home,with a sigh and hope
that tomorrow will be BETTER....BETTER THAN BEFORE!

STAGE......called life!!

2011-04-10T11:31:00.003+05:30

hushhh......the silence all around!
The glamorous spotlight falling straight on head,costume clenched in anxiety to curb the fear unexpressed..
Dreading how will I be performing irrespective of the crowd groaning..
I moved my steps and they were at cheoreographer's best! I covered entire stage with aura unleashed,little did I knew that I was being transformed into a women's glee..
My twists and turns were sharp as knife, my chasse's were burning stride!
With no intention of letting a single beat fail, I moved and swirled with my own glorious tale..
The end was marked with applause all around, with no arrogance in the air that surround!
The minutest of the THUD,proclaimed to the whole of it that I have arrived, in the journey called LIFE unwind............

Good Bye TCS conditions apply**

2011-04-10T02:32:00.002+05:30

My Final Good Bye mail to TCS :

Finally, its the time when I am gonna take your time.. I have been a year late in doing this, my much awaited task...This shows how dedicated Im towards all the tasks assigned to me, that I took nearly 1 more year to complete it....My all the leads and managers must be now grawnning in their minds reading above lines.

Actually today is fortunately my last day in TCS as I am now moving out for my higher studies. However, as I am writing this mail I have started feeling that this is unfortunately my last day. It has been very entertaining journey for me..I mentioned just entertaining because this is the word which pushes me towards everything I do..And all the other common words learning, teaching, professionalism etc etc comes under this single word for me...

My journey in Humana project has been just 6 months long. But these 6 months were not less for me to make great relations with everyone in the project. This medium may become exhausted if I thank each one separately. However, there are few people whom i cant miss....

Nisha - Thanks for all your cooperation is making me comfortable in starting of my joining this project. She tried her best in listening to my problems and solving them for me. Though I was never interested in coming to Noida. But, she made sure that I miss Humana one day in future...And here I am.....One confession...All my problems were just excuses not to come to Noida..:)

Nitin - He is the person who must have got angry many times over me but only in my absence..But, Sir as u know I never escape from work and never leave my work pending..There were situations which were unavoidable for my unplanned leaves...(for me still they were planned)..Thanks for all your cooperation..

Gyanendra - He is the one who has given me all the freedom..Also, always encouraged me to work more and more ..He is the one who even gave me credit for the work which I didn't deserve..Thanks a lot... It was really great working under you..

Navneet - To say something about him. I am quoting someone's word from the project, "He is our Aamir Khan....Mr. PERFECTIONIST'. Sir, it was really awesome working under you. Onsite is always projected as something evil..But under you it was totally different..We always felt at same level with you..And I have learnt lot from you..Not just technically but also managerial skills..Which for sure I am gonna carry with me..

Ajay - He is the most technical guy in Human KMG..I guess Ajay dont wanna hear more than this...:)

Saurabh - I know him since I know AS400..Anything I say about him and his support will be less..He is the one who gonna miss me most here...:)

Finally its time for TITLIYAs ( Neha, Poorva, Sirisha, Sunanda, Priyanka and badi titli - Samta) - Don know what to say..But just gonna miss u all..I know there are people who maybe jealous of me..Must be manipulating thoughts in their mind about our GANG..but we call it GANG BANG...Cheers to you all..:) And I never taught them anything against their seniors or so. However, I felt it should be my responsibility (like others) to raise them from just 'Trainees' tag..Its really important for them to learn professionalism along with technical stuff for their future..It was the same process which was followed by Saurabh towards me..So its part of my corporate responsibility to teach my juniors what all I have learnt...

I think most of you must have closed this email..But for all those who are still reading...Thanks for all your co-operation..It has been wonderful working with you all...All the best for your future...

HUMANA ROCKS....!!!!

I will be available at tushchill@gmail.com till I come back to TCS....!!!!!

Stay in contact......:)

Thanks & Regards,
Tushar Arora
Humana - KMG
Tata Consultancy Services

need of today....

2011-04-09T17:44:00.002+05:30

I swear I do not want my country to cry!
For all that I see around it's nothing more than a hue and cry..corruption on an all time high..fakeness emerging like a star filled sky..
I swear I do not want my country to cry!
Days are gone when matchless enthusiasm and dignity filled the air, now the time has come that even that is going withered..The devastation to the pride is almost being done,and here we are celebrating individualism with happiness all brunt..
Save the pride is all that has to be done..for a healthy scenario all around is a wish long undone..
cut corruption and plant the seeds of honesty,truth and glory all over..because the jitters of shame will haunt us forever..
I swear I do not want my country to cry rather laughing and rejoicing like a glorious butterfly passing bye!!

think! think!

2011-02-07T19:00:00.005+05:30

For every opinion that we raise,a voice of our conscience follow it..
For every dream that we take, there is always a scene plotted in our minds..
For every action that we do,we have infinite reasons attached to it and,
for every step that we took we have lessons to learn from it..
We go by the pre set pattern of what is right and what is not,we follow what is being set and inscribed abiding norms in the society. Amid all that we do,we forget what we are and how we want the things to go. Aware about the society regulations we become uneducated about our own requirements, abiding by all the taboos we really struggle to let out our creative self, to make the ones around us happy, we forget to make sure that our own happiness is not at stake.We do what others around us approves us to do, we feel feeling what is justified, we become numb where we know that our expressions will never be counted and we turn our backs where we know even our souls will be dug out in anguish and anxiety. Life is to live the way we want, feel the way which suits us, neglecting the things which bother us, expressing as if no one's watching and delivering what we can deliver best! With the changing time and advancements in the society that we live in it is the degree of morality and the ethics that matters to attain sucess from ground zero!

my first one..

2011-01-30T11:39:00.004+05:30

gosh!feeling all excited for my first one but more so for sharing it with you..just a minute ago i was wondering about *wonderful life*and thought if the combination of these two words really exist.Wonderful which means remarkable or anything worth admiring and life meaning continuous change until death makes me stress a bit too much on if or not these two words go together.Difficult to assess yet exciting as my quest for sorting the modern day meaning of these two words begin here.At times i wonder what according to my ownself these two words mean,will the term wonderful life be paralysed if detached from one another or will it give an added imortance to each other if used together.In today's time the word content is being replaced by greed..greed further leads to ills done by the occupires of the society in order to attain and achieve what they want to!In my opinion the words *wonderful life* must mean no ills hovering over any individual and the feeling of hatred towards the fellow being must be eradicated.I am so sure the attainment of it will not be a child's play but as we know nothing is impossible!!

my TYPE...

2010-11-01T01:05:00.000+05:30

She was walking down the market lane with me and were talking about random stuff..She suddenly saw a small child running on his knees after a balloon..not his balloon..Because he can just dream of having his own balloon and playing with it..He was running after someone else's balloon..I was looking here and there to make out if his mother is nearby..But she was looking for balloon wala..However, the next words from my mouth were.."Shayad, yaha pe nahi hai koi"..But she was still looking for one..And she found one..She bought the balloon and when we return to that place.. The child was with his mother..She hands over the balloon to that baby and gives a big sweet smile..And I was just able to say.."Mein hamesha karna chahta hun but kabhi kar nahi pata"..And she gives big smile to me even..:)

This is my type....

We all friends were standing below my friend's place and having random chit chat..We all were enjoying as we met our dearest friend after long time..And we couldn't find anything better than that at that very moment..But she was not with us..She went to the nearby park..And was playing with couple of small children..She was on his knees and making them dance..My all friends were like "sambhal ise"..But I said let her as I myself enjoy seeing her like this..She was teaching them to say "BABY IM TO PARI"..Her favourite line..And they were saying..na shouting with full heart...She didn't care if their mother was around or anyone..She was just enjoying..She loves when small kids do any kind of SHAITANI..According to her they are made for this only..And when she came back to us..The kids were after her.."DIDI HAMARE SATH KHELO NA"...And I just feel like being one of those kids when she smiles, hugs and kisses them...

This is my type...

There are many more sweet things about her..But all those are pretty personal and secret..But she makes every effort to make me live the way I want...She is the only one who was able to find out that my every action is restricted..I still wonder how...

This is my type...

Im a typical delhiitte but still THIS IS MY TYPE....

Undigestable....10

2010-09-02T11:58:00.000+05:30

Why we live mixture of 3 types of lives:
1. which we want to live..
2. which others want us to live...
3. which we should live being practical...????

Understanding...do we really understand or impose our understanding??

2010-06-25T20:23:00.001+05:30

We started really well..our understanding was so great..we use to understand each and everything between us..the time was so awesome..i can't tell u...it was just great...we use to roam..we use to talk..n everything...there was nothing missing between us..he use to do everythin for me..and I for him...we never gave chance to each other to complain...but as time passed..things started changing between us...we use to find things tough between us..we started fighting for every small things...started fighting for things which we use to like in each other...and as time passed, we just hated everything...we felt we are searching for things to fight on...n understanding which was best in our relatioship is just missing....

Many of us have same stories to share....

But was that really UNDERSTANDING, when we started on??????/

Or was that just the way to impress each other??

Or was that the way to make place in each other's heart??

Or was that just flirting??

Or was that just the way to keep each other happy??

Or was that just the way realtionships happen...??

But question is why we put so much effort in a relatioship in starting..And if we put, then why are we not able to carry it for whole life..Or we start expecting the same from our partner....

There are endless questions regarding this...and endless answers to all such questions....

But are such RELATIONSHIPS or UNDERSTANDING FAKE ????

Blank....

2010-04-21T21:07:00.002+05:30

today im most blank in my life...blank in my thoughts even...everything is so blank around me...the air im breathing is blank...the water im drinking is blank..the food im eating is blank...the clothes im wearing are blank..the words im speaking are blank..the work im doing is all blank..the salary im getting is blank..and the job im doing is most blank...my all important life decisions are becoming blank....

IS MY FUTURE ALSO BLANK??

FUEL of my LIFE....12

2010-01-30T16:00:00.000+05:30

New balanced diet - 1 complete HINDU, 1 complete MINT with few pages of MAIL TODAY...

whats happening in GOD'S OWN COUNTRY??

2010-01-12T21:58:00.004+05:30

We have been hearing since school time about Kerela - state with highest literacy rate. But the story doesn't ends here for God's Own Country...Kerela is leading in some other unexpected ways :-

highest SEX RATIO

highest LIFE EXPECTANCY

highest PROSTITUTION

highest SEXUAL CRIMES

highest cases of AIDS

highest number of GAYS

highest DRUNKEN STATE

its well said...always lead in everything..not just one.....

Undigestable....9

2009-12-19T00:56:00.000+05:30

LOVE AT FIRST MEET....???? :) :)

Undigestable....8

2009-12-06T14:15:00.001+05:30

LOVE AT FIRST TALK....???? :) :)

i WISH...

2009-11-27T20:26:00.003+05:30

We always keep saying, "I wish". But how many times have we rethought if our wishes are gettin complete or not. But if they are getting complete, do they still hold the same value as they had when we made that wish.. And if they are not getting complete, then, have we stopped making such wishes..

I don't know if my wishes ever get complete, but still I keep on wishing.. As it brings enthu in my life... Here is my latest wish....

Month of October...Winter breeze touching Delhi..Sun setting around 6..And me getting ready to go on date with someone..

I goes to her place to pick her up..She comes in beautiful red top and blue denims.. And Im just not able to remove my eyes from her..Have never seen her looking more beautiful than this..She looking exactly the girl I wanted in my life..And her sis comes along to say, "All the best", to her..And says to me, "Dhyan rakhio iska"..And I just replies yes with my smile..

As soon as we both start moving, I says to her, "You are looking most beautiful today".

She replies, "I was waiting to hear this".

I start smiling..As I stop smiling, she says, "Its only for you".

We both then moves for dinner to some good restaurant.. We place order and also order beer..:)Its always awesome to have beer with your dear ones..There should be just enough light inside the restaurant to see each other..Because I know every guy in that restaurant will be checking her only..We keeps on talking something or other till our food comes..She serving the food to me..She should know how to serve food..And me checking every single act of her and seeing someone special in her..We then pays the bill and goes for movie..What can be more beautiful than going for movie with your date..That too night show..We takes the centre corner seats..And both of us interested in each other more than the movie..And almost after every 5 min we are looking at each other and keeps on saying something or other..Suddenly, after interval she keeps her hand on armrest..And me solving toughest puzzle of my life..Is this signal to hold her hand or just that she wants to give her arm rest..And finally I touch her fingers with my fingers..Next what..We then sees complete movie with our hand in hand...

After movie as we comes out of hall..She starts feeling bit scared..And comes nearer to me..We then goes for long drive..We see each other's school..Each other's college..Each other's home..We just making each other see special places of each other's life..Suddenly, she holds my hand when I was changing gear..Again it was all silence in the car..I just not realizing what to do next..And I just says,"I want to marry you"...

Before I could thought of her reply..I said, "I wish..."...

???

2009-11-15T14:42:00.000+05:30

is there exist an eraser to erase something from our life??

FUEL of my LIFE....11

2009-11-14T03:12:00.000+05:30

Give me some sunshine..

Give me some rain..

Give me another chance..

I wanna grow up once again..

FUEL of my LIFE....10

2009-10-17T02:33:00.002+05:30

When we cant change our past...

When we dont know our future...

Then, why cant we just enjoy our present....???

Someone again left me.. :(

2009-09-21T18:46:00.003+05:30

I came back at 5 after enjoying day with my friends..And as I always do I came to say "HELLO" to the two fishes my sis got on her birthday, 16th of this month only..And since that day I just keep watching them all the time..They are like my closest pals..Someone who got closed to me so quickly..We were even not able to name them because we wanted to give them some special name..The name which means something to us..The name which actually means what they are to us..So we were still thinking what to call them..

And when my Sis came from her class at 6 to say "HI" to them..She shouted..And when I look at her..I found one of the dead..I just could not believe that..How can she die so early..When we are taking proper care of her..My hands were trembling..Somehow I regained my strength and took that dead fish out of the pot..I was just not able to see her..It was impossible for me to throw it somewhere..When we die, we go through all the rituals..But what when any of animals die??Are their lives costless??Does their lives have no importance in any one's life..When we hit any1 with our car and that person dies..We are made to go through court case, even when it was by mistake..But which court will file case against us when accidentally fish died because of us only..??

She was also someones daughter??

or someones mother??

or someones friend??

or someones gf??

or someones caretaker??

She must be having some dreams..Some beautiful dreams..More than beautiful we can even think of..Or Dream of..But all these things really mean to us??Why only human life is important to us??Fishes also breathe..They also have heart..And they are so beautiful that we just cant able to remove eyes from them..

We had even not named them..We were thinking of some special names..Names which actually mean what they mean to us..So we were just thinking...For my sis's friends they were PRACHI & RITIKA for them..For my sis they were PRACHI & JAYATI for her...And for me they were just my girlfriends..With whom I use to chat when I felt lonely..And they reply back too..But now there is only one left to talk to me..And don't know even she will also talk to me or not..Maybe she will feel I'm responsible for the other's fish death...

After coming out of this trauma..I thought of changing the water..Haven't done it before but had to..Because I felt the other fish died because of that only...So I started emptying the pot..And transferred the fish in other vessel..I cleaned the pot..And when I was emptying the dirty water from the vessel..I thought of putting the fish back into pot with little dirty water..But as I was transferring her back into pot she jumped out on the floor..i shouted so loudly..And my tears came out...And when I saw her trembling i vomited..I was just not able to digest what happened...My mom started scolding me to stop crying like small kid..And pick her and put her back..And I was just not able to see her..Then my mom call me that she is still breathing...And asked me to put her back into pot..But my hands were trembling..It was not possible for me to do that..I don't know how doctors operate...They really have big heart...Strongest of all..Then mom put the fish back into pot..And mom said that she is still alive...I went to see her..And I was just smiling...I was not able to believe that she is still alive..I was asking mom that "she is still alive", with a smile..I took sigh of relief..She is really so strong that she was able to live outside water like that..Thanks GOD..I still have one of my sweethearts with me..I LOVE U..

And right now she is feeling bit lonely..But enjoying..Will bring new friend for her soon...:)

But today I realize that life means to me a lot even if its not human life..:)

FUEL of my LIFE....9

2009-09-10T19:05:00.001+05:30

When we are young and fails..We feel, its the end of the world..But its not...Its just the beginning...

Life Can Be Same Again..

2009-08-08T00:09:00.003+05:30

It was 6th June...Normal weekend..Normal Saturday...But now its no more normal..It has become the special day in my life...Day which I cant forgot..Day which I don't want to forgot..Day I will never forget...

Suddenly after that day I started living my life again...Enjoying my life as I use to...Life full of moments...Moments not worth forgetting...I have got my life back..The life which I use to love...And love myself in that life....And its gonna continue whatever may happen now...

Enjoy life...That's what I want to do now....:)

P.S. - Thanks..Its for u...:)

FUEL of my LIFE....8

2009-08-07T23:57:00.000+05:30

Why to have expectations, when expectations act as secret poison??

FUEL of my LIFE....7

2009-07-19T20:42:00.001+05:30

Why not smile over things which we have rather than crying over things which we dont have...??

its LEGAL now...

2009-07-03T20:44:00.005+05:30

With the change in section 377 of Indian constitution all the GLHT (gays lesbian homo....) community are celebrating..But there are few more things on which they missed giving thoughts on...

Our mother tongue 'HINDI' consists of many words which actually supports them or are made for them or refer to them...Like :-

chaloGAY

khaoGAY

sunoGAY

boloGAY

dekhoGAY

manoGAY

doGAY

loGAy

banaoGAY...

And the list continues...So next time when u just use any of these words..So be bit careful...

As its ALL LEGAL NOW...

Undigestable....7

2009-07-03T20:22:00.004+05:30

How can anyone buy RITZ??

Just to get someone noticed by others...

Nice expensive way to..:)

are you VIRGIN ??

2009-06-01T21:01:00.000+05:30

It was saturday morning for me but afternoon for everyone else. I was sleeping leisurely with my pillow over my head keeping me away from all the noises this world makes..And suddenly my cell vibrated..I pick it up and the voice from other side was so sweet, that instead of putting it down again, I listened to it..It was like some 16yr old girl calling..And she said..

"Hi, good afternoon."

"Is this Tushar??"

I replied, "ya speaking."

She asked, "Is it right time to talk to u??"

I wanted to listen to her but wanna sleep also..Hate such calls while sleeping..But that sweet voice made me to hang up..

So, I replied, "Aapki marzi."

She said, "what??"

I again replied, "Aapki marzi."

She kept quiet and was smilling..

I asked, "whats there to smile??"

She said, "nothing."

I said with a bit forceful sound, "I guess u can tell me so that I can also smile."

She said, "I heard u said 'ARE YOU VIRGIN' instead of 'AAPKI MARZI'..."

I was smiling and she too..And chance pe dance marte hue I asked, "waise are you virgin??"

And she kept the phone saying, "bye, sleep tight."

my first unexpected unplanned DATE

2009-05-10T00:26:00.012+05:30

I was sitting in my college library and somehow got courage and call her up..Luckily it was her lunch break and we talked..During the conversation I came to know that she lives in Rohini, near my college only..I was quite happy to know this fact as if she lives next to my home or in my heart..I guess second reason looks bit true...After our conversation..I call up my friend P..Actually through her only I met N..Yes the girl im talking about..Her name is N*****..I asked P to confirm where exactly N lives..And indirectly I asked her at what time their college ends and message me when the college gets over..

I received her message around 4..But I gave call to N because she is my final destination..Even our college got over at 4 that day, fortunately...I asked my friend Sid to drop me to Rohini East metro station..I reached there at 4.15..And then intzaar shuru hua...I kept watching at the metro as if u can see everything inside the train..I knew she will at least take 45 min to reach..But just wanted her to be with me next second..But trains were coming and leaving..But inteha ho gayi mere pyar k.. ayi na kuch khabar mere yaar k..i didn't even wanted to sit there calmly and wait..Not even wanted to tell her that im waiting..just wanted it to be complete surprise for her..Actually wanted to notice her reaction because that could make me clear if she is bit interested..:)

And then finally she came...In white suit with pink floral designs and pink dupatta..Have anyone imagined her crush coming in suit on the very first date...But I always wanted to see her that way..Because I feel girls look most beautiful in suits..(..Im talking about beautiful not sexy)...And first line which i said seeing her was..Badi gulabo gulabo ban k ayi hai aaj..:)..She with the cutest smile on her face, asked me,"Who told u that I live here, P?"And I was just blushing..She lost words and was smiling..And I was just noticing all this..Everything indicates that she likes me too..But really??I wish..

I was just waiting for the right moment to ask to go somewhere or something..But before I could say anything..She said, "Kahi chale because my home near-by and its risky to talk here."..I was not in control of the situation..It was all unexpected to me..First she was happy to see me there..And now asking herself to go somewhere..Is she fast or have she done this before also or is she really interested in me and knows that im budhu..:)I was completely puzzled..

We decided to go to M2K..But how??She said will take rickshaw and will it be fine with me..I didnt had option of saying no..I cant afford to say no..But was wondering, "kash mere paas bike hoti."But who have ever imagined that rickshaw drive with ur love with u and chauffer driving can be so romantic..:)..Who even knows when SRK can steal ur idea..

We reached M2K..It was my first time there..We decided to go to McD's but found it full, fortunately..I never wanted to go to place like this on my unexpected unplanned yet first date..Then we went to Costa Coffee..It was my dream at that time to go to such romantic places..But she made it possible..My taking tuitions first time payed me.I wasn't worried about the bill as I got tuition fees day before..But how my student realized I will be need money..We took the corner table..And she within seconds after sitting said, "I will have brownie."I wondered how many times she have been here...I went to counter and was puzzled thinking what to order..I never had anything like that before and was not able to make which will be value for money as everything was so costly..I ended up deciding for some soda shake..As it was cheap of all..:)

We sat and started looking here and there rather than looking at each other..Why we just cant look into each other eyes when we both want to..She asked me to taste brownie..And what i reply.."I don't like chocolates."..Can u imagine how tough that would have been for me..Lying on ur first date and that too the biggest lie of ur life..When u without giving a second thought can say u cant love anything more than chocolates..But u have to do all this..These are the rules of first date..

She was busy eating..And I was busy staring at her..How can she smile so beautifully??..She can just make five years stable govt fall in five seconds with her smile..I was just not able to notice any other thing..The other guys out there were checking their gf from top to bottom, from outside to inside, and I was busy checking the way she smiles..Her smile is actually root cause of all the trouble by making me fall in love with her, or her smile..Still don't know....We talked about everything else other than us..

And suddenly she said I have to leave..I looked at my watch..It was 5..But it has been just 2hrs..But itni jaldi kaise??:(..But I could not have asked her to stop for some more time even..Why is there so much restrictions on first date when u both wanted to stay for whole life..And i finally said her bye without giving a hug..I wanted to..But don't know what rights I had..

Then she went to her home and I just felt like following her but I rather moved towards bus-stop to catch the bus..But what a day was that..2 hrs with the person u never expected to be with u..With such sweet smile sitting in front of u, smiling without any reason, blushing without any reason, trying to look into ur eyes by stealing chances without any reason..But was the reason that she is interested in me??But was the reason she likes me??But was the reason she loves me??I don't know the reason but what I know is I love her..:)

Undigestable....6

2009-05-06T23:24:00.003+05:30

Why people using words like fuck off and all think that using these words make them belong to high society and consider people using same words in hindi as illiterate..??

Back to square one..

2009-05-06T20:03:00.002+05:30

Suddenly my life is taking u-turn against my wish and Im not at the driving seat..Getting the comfort of chauffeur..But whose the chauffeur now??
TCS??
Destiny??
God??
Or me myself??
Whosoever is the one..But Im not liking it..After 6 months of bench I finally got bit satisfied..But satisfaction came with very short expiry date..At least I got tagged to the project..I started learning something..It was not up to my expectations..But what has happened according to my expectations till now??But still better than nothing..
But now Im back to square one..Im again on bench..Project bench this time..

P.S. - Don't know what I want but I just don't want to start believing in destiny and luck..:)

Shaadi.com or Goodfood.com??

2009-05-02T00:31:00.003+05:30

Its not my new area of interest..Not even im advertising for these sites..And its not the old crap idea of starting a start-up...But its about a person who falls in one of these categories or both..:)

Actually his name is Saurabh Gupta..He is unofficially my mentor in the new or only project I have got...Don't know how can I describe him..But he is really shaadi.com or goodfood.com or both..And I have evidence in support..And if anyone doesn't agree then do let me know..

It started something like this..I entered my ODC (offshore delivery centre) and he called me up to join for breakfast..Strange but there are some good people who really take care of u..And I was not alone for breakfast..Almost everyone was there from my project...I asked him from where he brought..He said from Green-Hut..A restro near our office...(n I was wondering k raat ka bacha khana khila raha hai humko)..And everyone was praising him..I was just not able to get whats happenin..How can everyone be so fake or are they pulling his leg indirectly..No doubt the food was awesome..But why they praising him for the food he brought from the restro as if he is the cook in that restro...Later I asked him..Did u prepared that??He said yes..And I wondered..how can a person make some awesome, so yummy DAl-MAkhani..And its not so easy even our mummies not able to make such awesome food early in the morning..And he being the boy..And bringing the climax to the story..He told me that he got up at 5.30 to make this food for 40 odd people without any reason..

It didn't just happened once..It happened again..It rained heavily that morning to every one's surprise beating the rising temperature..And everyone was just talking about having Pakoras somehow..And what happens..Here Saurabh is again with Pakoras..Being the Allah ka Banda..How can he do all this I still wonder..Those were the best pakoras I have ever had..Stuffed with aloo and a layer of paneer..And who cares about health when u have such yummy pakoras around..Everyone just loved it..And he was just busy in inviting everyone..And when anyone praises he just blushes..:)

And I know it will keep happening..Hai na Saurabh??

And everyone asks him the recepie being male or female, elder or younger, senior or junior...

So isn't he perfect cook (goodfood.com) or perfect shaadi material (shaadi.com) or both???:)

Undigeatable....5

2009-04-25T20:59:00.004+05:30

When someone loves u, u don't realize it,

when u realize it, its too late,

u always love the one who leaves u

and leaves the one who loves only u...

FUEL of my LIFE....6

2009-04-19T00:23:00.002+05:30

Deep thinking makes a person more practical and careful about life agendas...:)

Undigestable...4

2009-04-19T00:21:00.002+05:30

Its always girls who drives boys in the end...!!

What a luck...

2009-04-12T01:43:00.005+05:30

10 April, 2009

We were coming back from office in Vikas's car..And We means we 3 friends me, Neha and of course hamara driver Vikas..And Deepti was missed out as she left early without telling us..:( We were enjoying all the way..Me and Vikas was making Neha pareshan..Actually we keep doing that all the time..And she also enjoys it...But as we reached Tilak Nagar..The Wagon R moving in front applied brakes suddenly..And we just managed to stop somehow..And people around started shouting..We were just not able to get whats happening all around..There was nothing in front of that car..And That car didn't broke down even as it moved on..Then we guessed something must have come under his car..And now that is under our car..We were not able to decide what to do and whats happening..We were just looking at each other..We were scared..Vikas said,"I can't move further,cant harm something by my car"..Till that time we were guessing that some dog might have come under our car..We but then moved our car further..As we moved 100 metres further..We started hearing some sound..Sound of bird chirping or cat crying..And Neha shouted..She felt as if something is inside car..We parked our car on roadside..And then started looking under it..We saw small baby kitten sitting on back shocker..We became more afraid..We started praying k woh theek ho...Then we asked one rickshawwala to look under and take that cat out...We just wanted it to be safe..As that bhaiya hit the kitten with stick..She ran..And we were happy to see her perfectly fine..We all cheered..But what we saw next..She ran over dog sleeping side of the road..We all shouted but than realized that dog is itself not well..And she was able to escape without being caught..We finally took breath of relief..And were looking at each other..Kya kismat thi is cat k..Pehle hamari age wali car se bachi..Then hamari car se bachi..n hamari car k neeche kisi bollywood hero k tarah travel kiya..And then ran over her enemy dog...And after this everyone lived happily, we three, and that small kitten..:)

My Quarter End Results..

2009-04-05T01:38:00.002+05:30

Its April..Month not just known for April Fool..But also known for companies quarter end results..As i don't own any company till now..Still I will be declaring results..Not my job results but results about my amendments which i took on 1st Jan 2009..

1. I have finally got project..Didn't got in first 15 days of this month as i wanted..But lately got one..And its Citi Auto financial..:)

2. Im still not able to study for CAT..Just not able to manage time..Don't know why is it happening..But im pretty worried about this..:(

3. I still havn't started saving part of my salary..But i don't regret it now as i was involved in buying few necessary n special things for my family..:)

4. Im still on my way to flirt..But not the way i use to..Actually not getting sufficient time..:(

5. Im calling one of my friends daily and that too religiously..And both my friends and me are happy..:)

6. Im now really a good boy as im not using abusive words in spite of watching roadies and splittsvilla regularly..:)

7. Im still not able to find one NGO to join..Anyone having any info regarding that..Please do update me..:(

8. Im still single...koi mil hi nahi rahi..:(

9. Havn't checked my weight..So dont know if its 69 or 62..:)

10. I hope i wrote decent no of posts and hope it goes on..:)

So, checking my goals and my results i declare 60% bonus to myself..:)

FUEL of my LIFE....5

2009-03-27T23:46:00.007+05:30

My two chocolate rules :-

1. Never share chocolate with anyone....:)

2. Never buy chocolate, just earn it........:)

P.S. - Both these rules are religiously followed by me..

FUEL of my LIFE....4

2009-03-13T23:47:00.004+05:30

Money is NECESSARY and i guess most NECESSARY but not SUFFICIENT for LIVING LIFE in REAL..

Can i DELETE ????

2009-03-01T23:24:00.000+05:30

I just want to delete 1 night from my life..One night..That night...Night which is making my other nights worse..Actually worst..Dont know what happened to me that night..Was it really me that night..The Tushar i know??The Tushki i know..Or the Tushar or Tushki i knew??The coolest person around..The most calm person around..The most patient person around..Or was there no one around ..Or was i only there in this world that night..Still dont know what happened...And whats happening now..Everything is just messed up..Life, me, myself, my trust, my love, my words, my feelings and even me...I still wonder what happened that night..First time in my life i just lost my temper..Became so hyper..Have just seen people getting hyper in my life..But it never occured to me.. But that night it happened..Still dont know how..But i just spoke..Spoke without thinkin..Without checkin my words..Without giving second thought..Without listening to some1..Without knowin what i was sayin..But i wasn't drunk even..Then??????Was i tired..but tired of what?Life, me, myself, my trust, my love, my words, my feelings, my office or just physically or me myself??I still dont know..Or was i tensed..But tensed because of??Life, me, myself, my trust, my love, my words, my feelings, my office or just tensed..But i do regret what i said..What i spoke..What i suspected..I just hope to delete that night from my life..Because i hurt some1 very badly that night..But i didnt mean anything like that..Cant hurt that person..Just cant see that person cryin..Cant see that person sad..But i did..But i made..But i saw...

Sorry...... :(:(:(:(

My New GF...:)

2009-02-07T23:50:00.006+05:30

Yes, i have got new Gf..New means new..And she is totally new..I had made lot of efforts to have her in my life..I guess that's understood..We cant have anything in our life without any efforts..But this time the efforts are different..Different from all previous..I didn't waited for her at the metro stations..Didn't waited outside her college..Didn't kept calling her day and night..Didn't met her in any of the fests..Didn't met her in any of the functions or get-together..Didn't met her on facebook or orkut even..And didn't even met her in my office..But i saw her on TV..On computer..In newspaper..And finally met her in one of the electronics showroom..And made her my GF by spending my complete 2 months salary on her..Not in impressing her..But actually in buying her...Ya, seriously..And all those people who believes money cant buy love..Wait...Think again..Its possible..Literally I bought my love..My GF..My new LCD TV..:)Yes, that's my new love..My new Gf...My LG SCARLET...:)

P.S. : And my new tv is my new gf because my X-Gf was my computer...I didn't ditched my X-Gf but just got crazy seeing new one..And now i have 2 GFs simultaneously...:)

Undigestable.....3

2009-02-07T23:41:00.002+05:30

I dont understand why people write 'mah' instead of 'my' and 'mahself' instead of 'myself' when it takes less time to write 'my' and 'myself' and also makes sense..:)

Undigestable......2

2009-01-24T20:40:00.003+05:30

Have u guys ever noticed when do girls especially speak in english??Its when they are angry or they are defending themselves..:)Ya its true..I have checked it with many girls..But i dont understand, why cant they speak in hindi that time???:)

FUEL of my LIFE....3

2009-01-21T22:26:00.002+05:30

Selfish...Im selfish..But im selfish for my life..And my life includes my family,my parents, my friends and many more things..So i think about my life, not myself, before taking any decision..Because im selfish, not self-centered..:)

Sad....:(

2009-01-19T20:30:00.004+05:30

The title is not to misguide or tell something else..Im really sad..And much more sad because i dont know the reason..Actually have lots of reasons..Just dont know whats making me sad..So that i can at least try to find its solution..But..

1. Why we feel sad when someone starts giving more importance to others??

2. Why we feel sad when someone starts having wrong perception about our nature??

3. Why we feel sad when someone doesnt try to understand our feelings??

4. Why we feel sad when someone doesnt have time for us??

5. Why we feel sad when someone is not ready to listen??

6. Why we feel sad when someone doesnt see our tears hidden under our smile??

7. Why we feel sad when someone lie to us??

8. Why we feel sad when someone doesnt want any relation??

9. Why we feel sad when someone doesnt want to share anything??

10. But why we feel sad when someone is not able to find single reason for our sadness, whereas we can find many??

FUEL of my LIFE....2

2009-01-11T00:52:00.001+05:30

Its never luck behind any thing..Its always our hard-work (if we did) and the decisions we took in our life..Luck is just an excuse..

Undigestable......1

2009-01-11T00:49:00.002+05:30

Why our moms always ask the vegetable-seller that "bhaiya sabzi taazi hai??" As if he will say"nai memsaab purani hai..meri tabiyat theek nahi thi..isliye aaj bech raha hun.."..:)

My s!mPlE ScHeDuLe..

2009-01-03T22:20:00.001+05:30

6:30 - My mom wakes me up..Actually just tries..And informs me that its time to start dreaming..Don't be shocked..It works this way..U usually see dreams when your mind is in conscious state and body unconscious state..

6:45 - I finally get up..After getting 2 earlier warnings from mom..Which i don't remember..But just believes her...And goes to loo to empty what all i have..Waste i mean to say..:)But there too in loo I'm in half sleep mode..Its just when i comes out i realize how well was i balancing there...

6:50 - Don't get shocked..I don't take much time to empty..:)Now its time for brushing teeth..This is the time when i start getting in my senses..And realizes that i will be late to office if i don't hurry up..

7:00 - Its time to shave..Have to shave daily..:(Office rules..Why don't they understand that shaving is like peeling the skin of our face..:(And which beard I'm keeping depends on time i can afford..

7:10 - I go for bath...Its 10 minutes in which i have to manage everything from shampoo to soap..Or from head to feet..

7:20 - I enter my bedroom after having bath..And seeing my room clock i realize, i don't have any time left..I hurriedly get ready..

7:25 - I do all the puja n all..Actually my puja just consist of Hanuman Chalisa..So not big deal..And in these 5 min only i have to gulp my milk and 1 parantha..The way snakes have rats..

7:30 - I leave home..Switch on my cells and take rickshaw for my bus-stop..

7:37 - I reach my bus-stop..Where I'm again the first person to reach...But i have to answer again to stupid questions like how do i manage to reach on time consistently..Actually I'm punctual..:)

7:45 - My bus comes..Ya bus..Its my office bus..TCS..Tata Consultancy Services..I take my seat..By mine i mean on which i sit daily..And keep watching through the window..But when any stop comes..I just check who is entering..And wish them 'good morning'..I hope u not taking me as bus conductor..

8:45 - We reach office in gurgaon..But our office time is 9:30..:(Its our bus driver who drops us so early..

8:48 - I enter canteen and now its my duty to check if the canteen is clean and breakfast is ready..Don't worry nothing happens like this..I reach office so early that i feel the canteen staff must be having this perception..

9:00 - My other friends starts coming..And we discuss what all happened in bus..Kisne kiski bajayi..:)

10:00 - We all go to mark our attendance abd proxies..Ya, this still continues..And come back again to canteen..

10:15 - I have my breakfast which i brought from home..Actually its lunch according to my mom..But my stomach...

10:30 - We all go to library to check our luck..If we have got any mail or not..And read newspaper after that...

12:00 - This is our time to move towards GYM...Yes, the gym opens at 12...So we have to wait for it to open..We play tt (table-tennis)..Actually i learnt it here only..TCS believes in all-rounders..So they have different techniques to make u fit for their company..

1:30 - I along with few of my friends make entry for the gym..Not to be muscular or to have 6-pack abs or 8-pack..But just to remain fit and masti..:)

4:30 - After feeling tired of exercising..We moves towards canteen again to have something..And what we have is fresh lime soda...Its really good for body and cheap also..:)

5:00 - We go towards "the maggi wala" which stands outside our office..He even pass smile to us..After all we are his regular customers..

5:45 - We move towards our buses in a hurry for 2 reasons..First, that we don't miss our bus..Second, we have to take our favourite seats..By favourite i guess u got..Full window seat..

6:15 - Its the time we reach GG1..TCS other office and starts playing DUMB-CHARADES..This game only takes place in our bus..And its flooded with all the private home productions..And any tough hindi word works..

7:30 - I reach my stop..Then take the rickshaw back to home..

7:45 - I change my clothes and shouts "mom bhook lagi hai jaldi khana do"..And before food comes to me..I'm at my computer table..My parents call my comp as my gf..:)

9:30 - After chatting with all my friends and reading all the mails..Or u can say after getting tired or bored i moves towards my room to read newspaper..

11:00 - I think of sleeping..That's the toughest work for me because I'm suffering from insomnia...:)

12:30 - I come back to my gf..My computer..Its natural..Man goes to his partner when he is not feeling sleepy...And starts writing my blog....Currently My s!mPlE ScHeDuLe..:)

And guys don't be shocked TCS actually pays us to remain fit, learn table tennis and to make these days golden days of our life...")

My New Year Amendments

2009-01-01T17:59:00.004+05:30

I always take few of the amendments every new year..But dont check if im following them or not..But this time im declaring them in open..Hope so i will follow..:)

1. Most important of all..I dont want to be on bench anymore..I want work..I want project..I dont want salary without any hard-work..As i was getting from last 2 months..And this should happen within next 15 days..

2. I want to crack cat this year...Dont know how..But i have to..Will start studying for it soon..And will study according to cat rules, not with mine like last time..

3. I will start saving some part of salary from now..I dont know where i spent 80k of my salary..But this will not happen this year..

4. I will continue flirting..But healthy one as i always do..Will not care what everyone thinks..Because its my life..

5. Will give call to one of my friends daily from long list of my friends..So that they dont complain anymore that i only call them on their birthdays..

6. Will continue my amendment of last year 'not to use abusive words' this year also..

7. Will become part of one of the NGO's in the city..

8. Will not remain single anymore..Im not tired of being single..But i want to love someone...:)

9. Will reduce my weight from 69kgs to around 62kgs..

10. Will continue writing on this blog..So guys keep reading...:)

HAPPY NEW YEAR..)

was i ALONE ??

2008-12-25T19:22:00.004+05:30

This happened on wednesday...A wednesday of its own kind..Different from all other wednesdays..And even different from 'a wednesday ' movie..But it was the first wednesday of its own kind..I didnt went to office..Had some work but that work got over early unexpectedly..I thought of utilizing my day by meeting my friends..All the friends were busy somewhere or the other..But i didn't want to go home either..So, i thought of going to C.P. alone..But was i alone??

I got out of the metro but again went out from wrong exit..Its happening with me continuously..I remain lost somewhere or have started forgetting things??I fear from the second problem...Though i moved towards the Janpath taking the longest route..It all was happening on its own..Don't know who was directing me..I didn't had to buy anything but still was looking here and there..Was i finding something?? I don't know..When i came out of Janpath i started feeling something different inside my stomach..A bit of pain..So i decided to go to Subway..My favourite resto..I really love the subs..There i order chicken-seekh sub with coke..And asked him to make it most spicy..But they still fail to make it spicy..:)I was eating my sub alone..And was enjoying so much..But was i alone??

Then i came out of the subway..And started walking..Don't know again where was i going..Someone was calling me??Or im on way to become a writer..I heard writers love to roam alone..Same thing was happening with me..But i didn't want to become writer..I went to all the showrooms..Pepe, Levis, Spykar, Adidas, Nike and all..But i didn't had to buy anything..And i was enjoying window shopping so much, i always enjoy, but i never knew i will enjoy alone also..I then went to Central Park..I like the way the security forces are checking people before they enter..And i hate people who misbehave with the guards..For whom are they doing it??I kept walking..Didn't had any target to complete..Was not even preparing myself for marathon..But still i was walking..While walking i noticed few things..The notice boards..Few goes like this 'Walk on the paved footpath only', 'No spitting here', 'Dont pluck flowers', 'Keep the garden clean'..There's nothing new in these..But how many notices we really follow??While i was walking i was noticing many more things..Hows the pigeons eating manure and taking off as someone comes near to them..Its really nice to see them..They all flies together..No pigeon is left alone..They are actually better than us..The other thing i noticed was the flowing water..The water always forms small lines like pattern on them..A pattern similar to the patterns on our hand formed by lines..Does that flowing water was someone's hand??The last thing i noticed was the people out there..U will get to see all types of..Some sleeping, some studying, some talking, some making love, some holding hands, some kissing, some starring at them..The thing that struck my mind was..What will our grandparents think if they see all this??Bcoz no boy was with another boy, no girl with another girl, it was boy with girl..Look at any pair..Its always follows like this..They will just say "zamana bahut age bad gaya hai, but zamana hamare hath se hi nikal gaya hai" ..Because the people feel proud when someone notice them..Don't know why??But still i was alone??

Or was someone walking with me??Or talking to me??Or guiding me??Or accompanying me??Or was someone in my heart??or was i missing someone??Or it was that footpath??Or those pigeons??Or those notice boards??Or that flowing water??I don't know who was with me..But im sure i was not alone...:)

FUEL of my LIFE...1

2008-12-21T22:50:00.004+05:30

We achieve and get so much, yet it seemed many people had not got many things they desired..Why don't we get everything we desire??Is it because we desire for everything??Or is it because there is someone out there, somewhere, who knows what is right for us..He makes sure we get everything we should get, it may not be everything we desire..:)

winter BLUES ???

2008-12-21T14:56:00.009+05:30

i want to write..

i dont want to write..

i want to study..

i dont want to study..

i want to sleep..

i dont want to sleep..

i want to go out..

i dont want to go out..

i want to talk..

i dont want to talk..

i want to come online..

i dont want to come online..

i want to play..

i dont want to play..

i want to watch movie..

i dont want to watch movie..

i want to eat..

i dont want to eat..

i want to listen..

i dont want to listen..

i want to smile..

i dont want to smile..

i want to have bath..

i dont want to have bath..

i am missing someone..

i am not missing someone..

i know what is this..

i dont know what is this..

i know whats happening to me..

i dont know whats happening to me..

i know what im writing..

i dont know what im writing..

i am having winter blues??

i am not...........???

One moment..Still alive...1

2008-12-21T00:33:00.007+05:30

We often keep running after moments which remain memorable in our life...But in this race we often forget the moments which are still alive with us..Here is one moment which just sets my mood on..:)

Once upon a time...The story will not start like this..:)..It was 8 November 2003..My friend Utsav came to stay at my home to study chemistry..And so i dropped idea of going to the last annual function of my school, Oxford Sr. Sec. School..But one of friend gave me a call and said i have to come..It was more of an order rather than a request..The dictatorship rose with the help of emotional blackmailing techniques..Actually her sister wanted to meet me..And it was first time a girl showed interest in meeting me..So along with Utsav i decided to dropped the idea of studying...And started preparing for my first MUH-DIKHAYI..:)

We went to our school..Fully prepared..Not with guns and bombs..But with mental-frame to tackle bombs there..I mean girls..I met with my friends there..And was looking here and there to find my friend's sis..At last i saw her..She was so cute, sweet, innocent, beautiful..My friend was calling me to meet her sis..But i was hesitating..Was i so shy or i didn't had courage to talk to her??But at last i went...

As normal girls she started having all those BHAVS..I don't know from where girls get it..Is it so cheaply available or just free of cost??At last i managed to make her look at me..And started having normal conversations..She was complaing again and again that the function is so boring and all..I was wondering if it is some clue to take her out or is she really getting bore??So i asked her if she wants to go out..She said my sis will not allow..Breaking my heart...Meanwhile the conversation went further..I asked her..Do u have any boyfriend??She asked me to promise first not to tell it to her sister..I extended my hand further to promise..And she extended her to hold my hand..And i never left..It was the longest promise i had made..And maybe still continuing..She was looking into my eyes..And me in her...And the typical SRK's movie scene started...I felt love for her..And saw the same spark in her eyes..And i proposed her keeping my shyness in my pocket..Her ans was..............Sorrry its secret...:)

This moment is still alive in my life..And will always..And always bring smile on my face as it is bringing right now..:)

Love Marriage Vs Arrange Marriage

2008-12-09T01:17:00.002+05:30

Papa: bacho ko arrange marriage karni chahiye..arrange marriages zyada successful rehti hai..

Manav: papa ye aap Marriage Vs Arrange Marriage kaise keh sakte ho??arrange n love marraiges m equal no of divorces hot hai..

Papa: actually arrange marriage m parents bolne layak to rehte hai beech m...agar koi ladai ho jaye ya koi prob ho..but love marriage m kaha..

Manav: but wo love marriage m bhi beech m bol sakte hai...

Papa: but love marriage m koi nahi beech m padta..

Manav: ye love marriage ka rule hai kya??

Papa: nahi..but love marriage wale case m...

Manav: zamana badal gaya hai..n zamane se tez ladkiyan..aaj kal har ek ka affair hota hai n har ek ka break-up..n us ladki se shadi karne se acha hai jo pehle se thook thuka k aayi ho k usse k jaye jise hum ache se jante hai..n completely trust kar sake..atleast extra marital affair wala risk to nahi rahega..:)

(This maybe just perception of few people i know..So please dont take it on heart..I just wanted to bring out view of certain people who thinks in this direction..)

Happy Birthday Prachi

2008-12-09T01:02:00.002+05:30

Its not her birthday today..Her birthday was on 15 November..N comes every year like ours...But this time i forgot to wish her..:(..Its not like that i forgot her birthday but i missed to wish her...It just slipped out of my mind..Sorry SIS...Anyways she is one of my sweet cousin n pretty too..So boys just be away from her bcoz she have few brothers who can cause u trouble..But good boys are always invited..:)Hai na behena???:)..N everyone who just read this post wish her through comments so that she forgive me soon...:)..I know she will otherwise also but still..N i promise that we all will go to disc after ur exams...N from now i will be the first one to wish u...Happy now???:)

BUT WHERE IS THE TREAT???:)

do we have a RIGHT to CRY??

2008-11-26T12:08:00.002+05:30

We often keep crying for somethin or another in our life...We almost spends 90% of our life cryin for all what we dont have..N even our tears overcome our smiles..N we r not able to express our happiness completely atleast when we r happy..N even are not able to feel happy ourselves...Because hum log apni hi duniya ki problems main fase rehte hai, agar hum bahar ja kar auro ki problems dekhenge to..We'll find that our problems are nothing..Here is a small experience of one of my friends..Which taught me that we dont have any right to cry....

She once went to a slum area for some survey as a part of her college assignment...The slum we all know how it is..We people just cant stand over there..Its so filthy n unhygienic...There she went inside one jhuggi..It was a small room of almost 8*6..N it was their bedroom cum kitchen cum everything...No furniture, no almirah, nothin other than a single mat over which they all sleep..They were sooo poor..The family consisted of 1 man n his 2 children..Even her wife was not there...Its really bad to see people living like this..My friend entered inside n said namaste..The man was shocked n happy to see someone like this to come to their jhuggi..He was expectin her to be some govt servant for their help..But she was there for her work..The man put a bucket upside down for her to sit..Even when she was ready to sit on floor..N the man asked her for tea..N was calling her betti..N most important the man had courage to smile..N his smile taught my friend if people have courage to smile in such unwanted conditions..than why do we cry??N if we cry we are doing injustice to such people..Because ours condition is much more better than those people..

So, do we a have right to cry???

Im a flirt, really??

2008-11-22T15:58:00.002+05:30

..Flirt..Flirt..Flirt..This is what i hear from everyone around me..N still hearing..Girls boys n everyone..Even my girlfriends says im flirt..But im a flirt, really???

This questions just makes me lost in my thoughts..Thoughts to which i dont have an answer..But how can i know the answer when i dont know what flirtin means..

My mom says im a flirt bcoz i talk to so many girls..Dont i have right to have a female friend..Or should i get inspired by dostana or fashion..Even that relation is also not considered good...Maybe i will never b able to get married if i enter into somethin like that..My female friends says im flirt by the way i talk to them..the way i pamper them..cant i pamper them as a friend??cant i talk in that way to see smile on their face??N if they dont like flirtin then why the hell do they talk to me??on the other hand they always asks me to teach them how to flirt..N i always have one answer..I dont know how to flirt...N this is the truth..My male friends call me flirt..Bcoz wherever i go i make new female friends.. N bcoz of my breakups..But let me again tell them i havnt ditched any girl...N dont leave old freinds when make new ones..They then say this is what flirtin is...is it so??i have thought so many times..Searched dictionaries..dictionary says..Flirtin is To make playfully romantic or sexual overtures....But im still away from such things....

Im still in confusion...If any1 of u can explain me that im flirt..Please do tell me...But i will still not leave flirtin if it is actually flirtin only..Bcoz this is the way i live..N accordin to me im not doing anythin wrong...:)but will really like to know what exactly flirtin is.....

3 Mistakes Of My Life

2008-11-20T23:39:00.000+05:30

Makin mistakes is not new to all of us..Even if its u or me or anyone else..But more important is learnin from our mistakes n more important is not repeatin them..But whats the fun in livin without makin mistakes ????

Here r few mistakes i made n still love to make many..:)

Mistake 1

Never get inspired my movies like LAKSHYA or any model in MTV or channel V..U may end up lookin like this..A man thrown out of Indian Army..N prayin to get his hair back..Or his job..Bcoz we are actually not HRITIK ROSHAN n dont even have PREETI ZINTA..:)

Mistake 2

Never get inspired my movies like TAARE ZAMEEN PAR in this fashion..U may end up lookin like this..A small 10 year boy sufferin from dyslexia..N spendin his precious pocket money in buyin gels n all which he could have used to get his cellphone recharge n keep his girlfreind happy..Bcoz we are actually not AAMIR KHAN or DARSHEEL...:)

Mistake 3

Never get inspired by movies like GAJINI or Aamir's look..U may end up like this..Askin people to find longest hair on our head..People shoutin on u like hell..Ur parents not lettin u enter inside ur own home..People refusin to recognize u..People puttin label of self obsessed on u..N u dont have any other option than waitin for ur hair to grow back..But there will be few of ur friends who will really cherish u with comments like it was lookin good n somewhat like some soccer player..but its nothin like that..We really look weird in this hairdo..Bcoz we r actually not AAMIR KHAN n dont have 8 pack abs..:)

tumhari meri baatein...1

2008-11-18T20:22:00.002+05:30

Hi,

Manav

This is certainly not a love letter...

But I would like to take the opportunity on this special day

to tell you, how beautiful you have made my ways...

& to appreciate you in a way....

Your attitude towards life matches mine

U r ambitious & wanna achieve heights...

U not only see dreams but also work for it

& i certainly love u for it...

And also bcoz, u have always made me felt so special

Truly saying I never ever felt so special before

I know its bcoz of your love for me

But you know u pampar me a little too much...

And lastly a wish for you

For which i would even fight with GOD if he is

thinking of not giving it to you...

The wish is to PLEASE give you, everything you want in life

A choice I can give him is about your wife...

But rest he cannot deny

Bcoz uou are my cutiepie...

From,

Muskaan